I will survive.

Well, I think I've recovered from Tuesday's tantrum. One day at a time... one day at a time. I know I'm not alone in the baby fever department. It just feels that way sometimes, since the dude I spend most of my time with doesn't have a CLUE what it's really like! He tries to be understanding, but I know that he doesn't quite believe me when I try to explain just how bad it is. Oh well. We all have our crosses, right?

I'm trying to channel all that nervous energy into other things, in the meantime. Ben reminded me that if I don't want to let this literally drive me insane, I need to at least make an effort to distract myself. First things first, I want (slash NEED) to get back into running more seriously. I recently had to drop out of a 5K that I was registered for, but I need to register for another one and get to work. I was having tendonitis problems, but now that that's rested and (hopefully) healed AND I got new running shoes yesterday, I have no more excuses. I also need a JOB. Sitting around here for the past 3 weeks with nothing but my own thoughts has NOT been healthy for my state of mind. The job situation should be worked out within the next few days, so hopefully this won't go on much longer. It's been nice, doing whatever the heck I want, but I'm getting bored and a little stir crazy!

I'm also working on getting a little more serious about my photography. Step one is holding me up a little (step one = get decent camera), but I'm hoping that with my birthday and the holidays coming up I'll be able to finagle the camera I want as a gift or buy it for myself with gift money :] Then it's just a matter of finding ways and/or opportunities to learn and practice. I really would like to establish photography as more of a structured hobby, because I don't exactly have any "real" hobbies in my life at the moment. Somehow that just doesn't seem quite right. Anyway, I have some ideas. I think for starters I may start trying to read up a little and educate myself more formally on the technical aspects. I think perhaps I'll head over to B&N later. No better time than the present, right?!