In reality, there's really no reason I should feel "bored" at this particular point in my life (or so it would seem to the outside observer). I have a wedding coming up in less than 8 months, I'm a bridesmaid for one of my bridesmaids, I'm still interviewing for medical school and waiting for decisions, I'm working full time, and somehow my weekends are ALWAYS full, without exception. I guess maybe "bored" isn't the way to put it. Restless perhaps. The major wedding planning phase is essentially over, and it makes me sad :'( Being in the midst of wedding planning is addicting, and when your stash starts to run dry, withdrawal sets in, and you get desperate for more.
So, on that note, I've begun digging for details to attend to. Yesterday I toiled over my processional and recessional and reception introductions. I've gone back and forth several times about whether or not everyone should enter in pairs, who should walk with who, who will leave with who, who to introduce at the reception and with who... Don't make fun. These silly little details are really all I have. I started looking into prelude and ceremony music also for the string players. Sometimes I think classical guitar would be nice too...
I also addressed all my STDs (at least for everyone whose address I have) the other night. Again, desperate for something wedding-related to do. Ben really wanted to help - so sweet - so he stuffed envelopes. His handwriting is atrocious (literally, atrocious). I still need to finalize and print up the inserts for those, with the wedding website and the plea to book hotel rooms early :) That's really half the point of sending them - to get people to start booking so that our block of rooms can be expanded. And also to let people know that it's on a Friday so that if they need to make work arrangements in advance they'll have plenty of time. But I'm trying really hard not to send them until November so as not to appear too psycho about it - we'll see how long I can hold out :)
Next will be the tuxes and the flowers. The tuxes can really wait a while though. I'm trying to talk Ben into pinstripes :) I think that would be really cool and different. He's open to it - we'll have to see how he likes it in person. As for flowers, I'm pretty excited about that. I don't know why I haven't gotten together with the florist sooner! I have so many ideas but no clue how to fit them together, so I'm really excited to talk with someone who can put it all together for me and make some helpful suggestions. I guess I was originally waiting to have it all put together myself before I went in to the florist, but I'm sure it'll work out better if I go in there open to their ideas. I suppose we need to talk to the cake lady too. Again, I have some ideas, but it'll be fun to see where a designer can go with them. I'm clearly not a cake designer, though I try :)
I'm just so nervous to lock myself into anything because I know how indecisive I can be, but I think maybe it'll be a relief to put a few decorative things down on paper for real. I find myself a little stressed about the possibility of changing my mind and about not really knowing what it's all going to look like right now. Maybe if I start narrowing the possibilities by making a few decisions it'll seem less overwhelming. Things have already taken shape in my mind, but making it all real makes me quite nervous. I only get to do this once - what if these ideas are crap and I could totally think of something better? That's when I have to keep reminding myself of the big picture. It's the most decisive, wonderful, special day of my life thus far - we're literally committing to one another FOR LIFE - and then we get to throw a giant party and celebrate all night. When you look at it like that, who gives a crap about menu cards or centerpieces? You know, I'm getting the sneaking suspicion that this is all stuff I've written before... hmm.
UGH. It's approximately 25 degrees in my bay here in the lab, so my fingers are shrunken and my ring which normally fits perfectly is spinning and spinning around my finger as I type and driving me NUTS. Haha - just a few short months ago this was a problem I was just DYING to have! Poor me with my beautiful engagement ring.
On tap for next week is a federal holiday with my sweetie on Monday, my birthday on Tuesday (though it's a work day), another work day on Wednesday, and then a trip to NYC for two interviews (Mount Sinai on Thursday, Columbia on Friday). For now, my love is off in Ocean City with his friends for the weekend, so I'm heading to my friend Tara's housewarming party in Alexandria tonight, and then out to Andy & Laura's in Frostburg tomorrow with Em & Josh for yet another housewarming party (plus lots of belly-rubbing with baby Cooke #2 on the way). Ben will be back on Sunday morning for our marriage class (isn't he a sweetheart) and then Rick and Annie, his brother and sister-in-law, will be visiting for the Ravens game & dinner. I love staying busy :)
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